Random Revelation

2012 is nearly here, and I realized that many changes must be made, in addition to the ones that have occurred over this past year. This revelation was given to me yesterday night, when on a whim, my friend and I visited a psychic.

Happy Holidays!

Just want to wish everyone a happy and healthy holiday and new year. Remember, it is not about who got you what or how much money you spend on someone, it is about how you feel about them and how you reciprocate that love. <3 Have a good one!

Random Mess...

I feel like my life is a mess at the moment. Or maybe it isn't, and I just perceive it to be? I have no idea anymore. I'm a mess. Guess I just need more sleep. Or more romance. I've had enough of school. This semester needs to be over already. My job sickens me. But I need money. What a dilemma. I have no money for the holidays, which means a very tight Christmas shopping budget. But, I have to keep pushing. I have to keep working. I have to keep making my way...  

Random Gloating Part Deux... :D

So I volunteered to participate in this "game show"- type thing for my history lecture class as one of my recitation class' representatives. Why I volunteered, I do not know, but it was too late to take it back once I had raised my hand to volunteer. I thought, "What did I just get myself into???". This was on Tuesday. Today, I woke up late, and was a hot mess when I got to the lecture hall. The other rep and I flipped a coin to see who would go first and he won. The entire time he was on stage, I was a nervous wreck. When I finally got up there, I was even more nervous. But, I saw it through to the end, and I won the competition for my class, a small prize for myself from the course director, and five points on my final exam. But the greatest satisfaction I derived from that experience was knowing that my ex friend (who was in the audience) was squirming because she will never be able to compete with me. I'm just that good. :)

Random Plucking of the Heartstrings

It is a lovely thing to be accepted into your significant other's family. It is even lovelier, however, to hear it straight from his mouth. Hearing the words, "It's like you're already a part of my family" means so much to me, that I cherish that connection above any other in a romantic relationship. To me, if a man is close with his family, and his family accepts me, then I know my future with him is guaranteed to be a happy one. Family is extremely important to me, and nothing stirs my heart more than to know that his family sees me as one of their own. I am grateful for that kind of connection, and I hope it proves to be more than just a short-term engagement. <3

Random Loneliness

The holidays are approaching, and so is my 20th birthday (tomorrow, in fact). I should be feeling the warmth, glow, and cheer of the holiday season... but I do not. Instead, this holiday season, I am being constantly reminded that I am alone in all that I do. Not even those who I thought I could trust are there when I need them most. There is no one that I can confide in because I am always the victim of betrayal. And what is worse is that I have nowhere to go... But I have something major to prove. I have to prove, not only to everyone else, but to myself that I am capable of pushing through this hardship as I have done my entire life. The way Atlas is condemned to carry the burden of the world on his back for all of eternity, I too am condemned to a life of trial and hardship. C'est la vie. 

I am in NO mood today... I do not feel like going to class, but I have to keep up with the material...

Random Short Letters

These are short letters that I wrote to certain people who shall remain unnamed here, but will know where they fall as they read these sentiments. Enjoy.

Random Thought... :)

As of today, it is T-minus 4 days until my teen years are officially over. I mean, they have been pretty much non-existent since I was 13, but this makes it OFFICIAL. I am old. It is crazy how time flies, too. I guess when one has a lot on their mind, time seems to go quicker. Maybe I should slow down, lest the end of the world suddenly shows up at my doorstep. 2012, here I come!!

Random Annoyance.

So I spent my Thanksgiving holiday being split three ways-- first with my parents, then with my aunt and uncle, and finally with my boyfriend. Although I am grateful that I got to see them all and spend some time with them, I was extremely upset at the fact that they were not all in one place because of pure stupidity. I spent my holiday emotionally hurt because of the selfishness of others. Why not let go of differences and just enjoy another holiday with everyone while they are still alive and well? I hate that people in general view the holidays as a hassle because they have to "deal with" a relative or bring up an issue. Why not just let it all go?? Oh. Right. No one can stop being selfish or ungrateful. Not even for one day.

Random Gloating :D

I honestly have no clue how I managed to pull this off...

Somehow, I never manage to wake up on time no matter how early I fall asleep.

Random Romance... To The One I Will Love

To my Dearest, The time passes so quickly... I can barely remember when we met. It seems so long ago. But this-- this feeling that I have about you is oh-so-brand new. With you, I feel things I have never felt with any other person. The mere feel of your gentle touch on my shoulders, back, hands, face, lips... it sends chills through my body.

Random Rant (The first of many... perhaps)

Dear So-Called "Friends", Haters, And Strangers Alike,
If you can honestly stare me in my face and STILL have the damn nerve to judge and criticize me, then you are NOT worth my time. My own blood, sweat, and tears saturate every action I make, and for all of you to come and knock me for making decisions that best suit me? Hah. My darlings,

El Primer Random-- A Language Barrier

Me da ganas de escribir en Espanol. But then I realize that I'm surrounded by English-speaking peers (if you're wondering what the first line says, here ya go: "I feel like writing in Spanish"). That is not a big deal. What IS a big deal, however, is the fact that my landlady does not know any English, save for a few simple words. My biggest problem is that a lot of miscommunication occurs.