Random Insomnia Rampant

Second day of the year 2012 and I am still awake. It is 1:45am, and my head is pounding. But I believe that I have rediscovered an old friend. A good friend. In lieu of every bad thing that has happened over this week, this is one of the new year's nice surprises. I hope this surprise happens to expand into a lucky streak. I hope. In the meantime, I also hope I manage to fall asleep. :)

Random Revelation

2012 is nearly here, and I realized that many changes must be made, in addition to the ones that have occurred over this past year. This revelation was given to me yesterday night, when on a whim, my friend and I visited a psychic.

Happy Holidays!

Just want to wish everyone a happy and healthy holiday and new year. Remember, it is not about who got you what or how much money you spend on someone, it is about how you feel about them and how you reciprocate that love. <3 Have a good one!

Random Mess...

I feel like my life is a mess at the moment. Or maybe it isn't, and I just perceive it to be? I have no idea anymore. I'm a mess. Guess I just need more sleep. Or more romance. I've had enough of school. This semester needs to be over already. My job sickens me. But I need money. What a dilemma. I have no money for the holidays, which means a very tight Christmas shopping budget. But, I have to keep pushing. I have to keep working. I have to keep making my way...  

Random Gloating Part Deux... :D

So I volunteered to participate in this "game show"- type thing for my history lecture class as one of my recitation class' representatives. Why I volunteered, I do not know, but it was too late to take it back once I had raised my hand to volunteer. I thought, "What did I just get myself into???". This was on Tuesday. Today, I woke up late, and was a hot mess when I got to the lecture hall. The other rep and I flipped a coin to see who would go first and he won. The entire time he was on stage, I was a nervous wreck. When I finally got up there, I was even more nervous. But, I saw it through to the end, and I won the competition for my class, a small prize for myself from the course director, and five points on my final exam. But the greatest satisfaction I derived from that experience was knowing that my ex friend (who was in the audience) was squirming because she will never be able to compete with me. I'm just that good. :)

Random Plucking of the Heartstrings

It is a lovely thing to be accepted into your significant other's family. It is even lovelier, however, to hear it straight from his mouth. Hearing the words, "It's like you're already a part of my family" means so much to me, that I cherish that connection above any other in a romantic relationship. To me, if a man is close with his family, and his family accepts me, then I know my future with him is guaranteed to be a happy one. Family is extremely important to me, and nothing stirs my heart more than to know that his family sees me as one of their own. I am grateful for that kind of connection, and I hope it proves to be more than just a short-term engagement. <3

Random Loneliness

The holidays are approaching, and so is my 20th birthday (tomorrow, in fact). I should be feeling the warmth, glow, and cheer of the holiday season... but I do not. Instead, this holiday season, I am being constantly reminded that I am alone in all that I do. Not even those who I thought I could trust are there when I need them most. There is no one that I can confide in because I am always the victim of betrayal. And what is worse is that I have nowhere to go... But I have something major to prove. I have to prove, not only to everyone else, but to myself that I am capable of pushing through this hardship as I have done my entire life. The way Atlas is condemned to carry the burden of the world on his back for all of eternity, I too am condemned to a life of trial and hardship. C'est la vie.